Birthday in Bed

I am embarking on a first for me, a birthday spent entirely in bed.

At first my reaction was: “Oh, crap, well doesn’t this suck!”  But, after some quiet contemplation I’m feeling much more optimistic about this prospect.  You see my life consists of day after day of running around just trying to keep up.  While being sick is certainly no picnic; it is an excuse to pamper myself with the rest and respite from responsibility I most often deny myself.

Today my goals are this:

  1. Watch TV
  2. Order takeout
  3. Sleep
  4. Sleep
  5. Paint my nails (if I’m feeling particularly ambitious)
  6. Think about how awesome the next 364 days of being 28 will be
  7. Let those birthday calls go to voicemail (It’s much more fun to have a plethora of people singing ‘Happy Birthday’ recorded for posterity then have to react accordingly through the flu live on the phone)
  8. Sleep
  9. Read DamnYouAutoCorrect and try not to let the laughing be a catalyst to a coughing fit
  10. Enjoy the quasi drunk feeling I get from a constant stream of Nyquil in my system

I kind of like it.  Is that weird?  Perhaps this is the Nyquil typing.  A day spent lazing about sounds like just what the doctor ordered, literally.

Kim

On screwing up

In my quest to fill my life and psyche with only positive mojo I just reread Eat, Pray, Love.  I love that book, I don’t care that it’s quintessential poplit at this point, it always fills me with feelings of hope and self acceptance and makes me feel like all of my feelings are completely universal.  Every time I read it I come away with new little treasures of inspiration.  I dog-eared a page with this quote yesterday and have been rereading it all day:

“People universally tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough.  But that’s not how happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort.  You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it.  You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own  blessings.  And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it, you must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”

That’s exactly what I’m working on!

That Elizabeth Gilbert is a smart lady.  Well, not according to my co-worker who stopped by my desk to exclaim how much she hated Eat, Pray, Love. To each their own I suppose.

If you knew/know me in real life you would know that I’m the kind of person that is always early.  I seem to spend half my life waiting around for other people to get to wherever it is I am.  I don’t really mind this.  What I do mind is being late or feeling unprepared.  Last night, however, I was a complete disaster.  I was scheduled to test a new fitness class and review it.  In a very un-like me moment I didn’t double check the location.  I’d been to this gym before and knew exactly where it was.  Except, it wasn’t at that gym. There was no way I was going to make it cross-town before the class started.  At first I felt awful.  I wrote to the press contact and apologized and asked to reschedule.  I can’t believe I did that.

Then, as I walked to the train I thought “Very few things in life are irreversible.  You’ll go next week.  In the meantime, you’re sick maybe it’s best to not infect an entire gyms worth of people and instead go home and cuddle up with your BFF Nyquil.”

And that’s what I did.  Not being perfect is apparently not the end of the world.  The press contact wrote me back and said I could come next week.    While this may have been a very minor moment in life, it represents a bigger theme.  I’m going to screw up sometimes, we all are, but most of the time it’s really not that big of a deal in the end, so maybe we all need to stop beating ourselves up about it.

Breakfast

Oatmeal with banana and almond butter
Tea

Snack

Mixed nuts

Lunch

Tuna salad on whole grain roll
Clementine

Snack

Apple

Dinner

It’s the only soup I had in the house, and everyone knows you need soup when you’re sick:
Udon noodle soup with shrimp and brocolli

Kim

Say what?

I’m pretty sure my body is getting back at me for years of good health.  In the last few months I’ve been sick more than I have in the last 5-years.  It would appear something is not right with my immune system.

I woke up this morning without the ability to swollow and fairly certain that at some point during the night I accidentally poured cement in my head.  Bummer.

It’s just a head cold, I minor inconvenience that is inconvenient nonetheless.  Obviously, I’ll get over it.

Monday is yoga night in my little world.  I literally battled it out with myself regarding whether or not to go.  These are moments I’m glad I don’t have a roommate around to watch my bizarre behavior.  Upon getting home from work I changed into yoga gear, walked outside ready to head to class, walked right back inside and had to stare at the door for a good few minutes rationalizing why I should go to yoga.    In the end, I won.  The winning argument: that I most definitely won’t feel better if I don’t go, but there’s a chance I could feel better if I do, and even if I don’t feel better I probably won’t feel worse.

I had to tell the instructor that my equilibrium was off, so there were no handstands for me tonight, but all in all I survived.  It was a truly bizarre feeling,  feeling my congestion move from one side to another as my position changed and being able to hear out of my right ear during inversions but not in upright positions.

The body is a strange place.

In the end, I’m glad I went.  My head might not feel better but my body does.  This is the first time all day that my body feels good.  Further proof that more often than not exercise is a good idea.

Breakfast

Smoothie with kefir, banana, peach and raspberries

Lunch

Lunch packed by my mom: Beef stew over coconut rice (an amazingly good combo)
2 clementines

Dinner

Spelt tortilla with hummus and cucumber

Kim

Wishing Chelsea Handler were my BFF

Happy Birthday Chelsea Handler.  Today is her birthday, I know this because I was internet stalking her today.

This all started yesterday when I hit up my local book store to trade in books.  I had been reading a ginormous book about the intricate and oft contradictory relationships between Israelis and Palestinians.  This just needed to go.

You see…I work for an Israel based non-profit, that I hate.  I just broke up with an Israeli man, that I don’t hate but certainly don’t have any interest in being reminded of on my commute to and from work everyday, and it is exactly one year since I went to Israel and have been getting emails and pictures all week from my Israel travel companions who are all super psyched and can’t wait to go back!

In a word: done.  I have reached my Holy Land threshold.

So, off to Border’s I went in search of a book that would neither remind me of Israel, work, or anything to do with romance, I stumbled on Chelsea Handler’s memoir about her extremely active sex life,  My Horizontal Life.

I’m in love with her.  I have always had a little girl-crush on her and when producers of the Daily Special and I would get together to talk about what the show could become I would often reference her show ‘Chelsea Lately’.  Truth be told though, I could never be like her.  I’m just not crass enough.  My humor, while a special-snowflake, is of the more self-depreciating nature while she is just delightfully uncouth.  She’s also way more promiscuous than I can ever imagine being, or well, have time for…and I think it’s kind of awesome.

The book I’m reading has nothing to do with love, but has everything to do with sex.  I am so enthralled with her, I keep chuckling aloud on the subway which always inspires confused looks by strangers.  What is that strange sound she’s making?!

Anyhoo, I take it as a sign that I was Googling Chelsea Handler on her birthday (which is silly because of course people Google her everyday–including her day of birth).  A sign that I need to get focused on getting back in the comedy scene, so while I’m still over-employed I’m going to sign up for more improv classes, it’s time to dust off those comedy chops.  I have a friend, a stand-up,  who has been trying to get me to give stand-up a whirl for well over a year now, he wrote to me earlier this week about grabbing dinner next week–maybe it’s time for a some buffalo wings and brain picking.

Mmm.  Buffalo wings.  My stomach was way better today.  I could eat meals!  Real ones, with food!

Breakfast

Smoothie with kefir, banana & peach slices

Lunch

Yup, still eating that soup.
Kale & white bean soup.

Dinner

Steamed zucchini
Strip steak with blue cheese (I had left over cheese, it seemed like a good idea and it was).

Kim

Doppelgänger Stomach Flu

Oy.  Yesterday.

I ended up staying home from work yesterday with tummy issues.  Seriously, between breakup-belly and the stomach flu I’ve lost 9lbs in the last week.  This is not healthy, do not try this at home.  I do not condone eating like me at this particular moment in life.

I woke up yesterday, ate breakfast felt sick immediately and forced some apple sauce down my throat later in the day so I wouldn’t pass out at my audition.  The audition was fun, easy-peasy.  It was more commercial than theatrical.  I was labelled “attractive girl” and had no lines (I didn’t know that until I got there and looked at the sides), I was partnered with “stalking girl” who was supposed to look at me all creepy and make me uncomfortable, then come up to me and say “Have I got a guy for you!”

Ha, I told my mom and she said “Did you lose it?”  I’d just been going on about how I need to actively take a vacation from the dating world.  I needed to deal with whatever guilt/anger I felt about Achilles, and not rebound.  I have this habit of rebounding immediately when a relationship ends because it’s nice to feel pretty and wanted, it’s bad, I’m not doing it this time.   So, the fact that my first audition in a while was about a woman coming up and saying “Have I got a man for you!” was kind of ironic.  The universe definitely has a sense of humor.

Did I get it?  Who knows?  It went well, but this was way more about look than acting skill, we shall see.  Honestly I’m more psyched to get back in the game.

So yeah, my day yesterday consisted of me sitting around feeling sorry for myself, not eating.  Then putting on a little black dress I had bought for a date that didn’t happen a few months ago, and I looked AMAZING in it.  Even one of the girls at the audition said “You should wear that dress everyday.”  That made me feel good, I guess the stomach flu is good for something.  Then I came back home and went to bed at 5pm!   I’m so lame, and so hungry…why won’t my body let me eat things?

In my boredom I decided to do my doppelgänger composite shot.  A couple of weeks ago on Facebook everyone was posting their celebrity look alikes, mine was Jacinda Barrett (from Real World London and Bridget Jones’ Diary 2).

I thought it was a pretty good choice, even though no one knows who she is.

Breakfast

Whole grain toast with 1/2 avocado and egg

Lunch/Dinner

apple sauce

Kim

National eat like a toddler day

Ugh, the stomach flu is the worst!

Apparently three other people from my office were out today, most likely from the same bug I had.  Maybe it wasn’t the salad’s fault after all.

I stayed home today, slept, wrote, and hit up an editorial meeting with the staff of one of the websites I’m working with.  One of my resolutions was to be more on the point with them, and it looks like they’re taking care of that resolution for me by putting together an editorial calendar.  I LOVE ORGANIZED PEOPLE!  Also, it looks like my writing responsibilities with them will increase this year from one post a week to three.  Yay, work!

Unfortunately last night due to my digestive disturbance I missed the production of Ragtime my friend is in.  So far I’ve bought four tickets for the show (once to go with family, and once solo), and none have been used.  Luckily my friend wrangled up a comp ticket for me tonight, so hopefully, barring no further disruption I’ll finally get to see her perform.

I’d like to say I feel 100%, but I still feel kind of crappy and food isn’t sitting well with me.  I tried eating lunch today and that seems to have been a bad choice.  It looks like light and bland are the best options.  I hope all this clears up by tomorrow because I’m hosting my birthday party, which will be a potluck.  I want to be able to eat all the yumminess!

For my part I’m going to be making stuffed cabbage and rugalach.  I make a mighty fine galumpkis (stuffed cabbage) if I do say so myself.

Here’s a look at my boring menu for the day:

Breakfast

Apple sauce

Lunch

Spelt bagel with almond butter & apricot-raspberry preserves

That turned out to be a little too much for my healing system so I made dinner a bit lighter.

Dinner

Apple sauce & banana
This must be what it feels like to be a toddler

Happy weekend everyone!  I’ll be back with potluck pictures on Monday!

Kim

Keepin’ It Short

I’m kind of tapped out in the thinking department, which could quite possibly be a symptom of the sick I seem to be getting.  My long winded blogginess seems to be failing me.

Instead of the night of exercise and writing I had planned I think I’m just going to hit the sheets.  Just  this once, instead of fighting with my body, I’m going to listen to it and get some sleep.

Breakfast

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Kashi Go Lean Crunch w/Strawberries & Soy Milk
Orange Juice

Snack

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Banana

Lunch

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A celebration of chickpeas!
Chickpea and eggplant stew
Baby carrots and hummus

Dinner

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My go to quick & easy meal: Udon noodle soup with shrimp and bok choy

Friday Recap

Happy Saturday morning Challengers!  I was all sorts of lazy and bed-ridden yesterday so I didn’t updated my blog.  I’m feeling moderately better, not 100% but not like I need to spend all day watching Netflix and taking Nyquil shots.  I’m going to try and hit up the gym today for a spin class.  I may not go all out, but getting my body moving again is a priority.  Later, I have dinner plans with some friends-they even offered to come to Brooklyn (that’s true friendship, people don’t just offer to come to a burough from Manhattan, usually they have to be forced begging and screaming.)

I also have some class work to do, so I’ll split my fine Saturday between being responsible and being alive, I feel like that seems like a fair compromise. 

Katrina: Thanks so much for you comment yesterday, I responded to you in the comments ;)

Here’s the Friday food recap-I’ll see you all again on Monday.

Breakfast 6.5.09

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Toast w/ Pepper jack cheese melted and and a poached egg
Echinacea Tea

Side note: I’m so disappointed!  I bought this beautiful loaf of 7-grain bread from a bakery.  A bakery!  While I was taking a slice out of my freezer to toast up for breakfast I noticed that their was an ingredients list on the bag, and what was ingredient #2: High Fructose Corn Syrup!  UGHHHHH.  That makes me so angry.  I expect there to be HFCS in food mass produced by evil conglomerates, but not local bakeries.  I feel a bit defeated.

Lunch 6.5.09

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Whole wheat spaghetti w/spinach, asparagus, shrimp and grated cheese.

You know my food stores are dwindling when the spaghetti comes out mixed with frozen veggies.

Dinner 6.5.09

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Wonton Soup

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Steamed chicken and broccoli from my local Chinese restaurant.  I always order the sauce on the side and ladle a couple of tablespoons on, instead of having it drenched in sauce.  3/4 c. of white rice.

Baking because I was bored

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I made a low fat banana bread.  I’d share the recipe but it wasn’t that awesome, apparently things taste better with fat.

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Banana bread and tea before bed :)  

Straight illin', yo.

Ugh, I’m sickalicious.  There’s something almost indulgent about spending an entire day in bed (as I did yesterday) except of course the actually feeling like crap part.  I did leave my PJs because I had dinner plans.  Plans that I utilized to quench my steak craving, then back to bed with me.  I think today will be another bed ridden day.  Luckily I work from home, so I won’t be a complete waste of space.

I didn’t workout yesterday, but depending on how I feel later tonight may hit a spin class-or not.

Breakfast 6.4.09

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Multi grain English muffin w/poached eggs
Coffee w/milk and stevia

Lunch 6.4.09

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Udon noodle soup w/shrimp

Dinner 6.4.09

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French Onion Soup

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Hanger steak and pomme frits (I didn’t eat all of it)

Calorie Count: 1,493 (hmmm, that seems low to me)
Calories Burned: zero

The Wednesday Report

I got home very late last night and didn’t have the energy to do my eating recap then.  I was supposed to get up and go to this three-hour yoga-esque class, to review, but I woke up with Swine Flu (not really, but still feeling pretty craptastic) and decided it may be wiser to spend the rest of the day in bed as opposed to spandex. Sigh.

Last night I went to see Our Town off-Broadway.  I thought it was a really well done production, although I think it started out amazingly strong and got gradually less awesome at the end. I did really enjoy it though and afterwards had some tapas and sangria. 

Breakfast 6.3.09

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Kashi Go Lean Waffles w/strawberries and organic syrup
Coffee w/Stevia and %1 milk

Lunch 6.3.09

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Veggie burger w/2 slices pepper jack cheese on whole grain English muffin
Garden salad w/low fat honey dijon dressing (organic)

Snack 6.3.09

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Whole grain bread (I got straight from the bakery!) toasted w/ 1% cottage cheese and pepper

Dinner 6.3.09

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Tapas (sorry for the picture the lighting was off)
There was a pulled pork empanada, fingerling potatoes, some shrimp and asparagus
Sangria (unpictured)

 

Calorie Count: 1,666
Calories Burned: 331-Dance off the inches: Ballroom DVD