Here’s a life lesson for you: Sometimes you have to put yourself first.
Even if it’s not fair, even if it will make people angry, even if you will feel guilty about it—sometimes the only thing to do is the thing you need to do for you.
I think this lesson comes easier to some than others. For me it’s been a long time coming. And then this week happened. This week is even “Hellier” than last week’s Hell week. This week I have to get down and dirty with a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity (although, I hope that after this once there’ll be more-in-a-lifetime). The trouble here is that it coincides with some other important moments for the people I love; including my parents and my best friend.
Not only do I feel overwhelmed mentally, but I’m totally emotionally spent.
I have resolved myself to doing the best I can for those I love, without sacrificing the time and dedication needed over the next week for my dreams to come true. People will be disappointed in me, but I’ll be even more disappointed if I waste this opportunity. Sometimes you have to be your own first priority.
So, I called out of work for a week, took some time off from helping my parents move, and told my best friend that I wouldn’t be riding in the limo for her bachelorette party (although I’ll be there for the rest of the actual partying) so that I could spend as much of the day writing as possible. I feel like a terrible employee, daughter, and friend, but I’m doing the best I can.
Do you have a hard time putting yourself first? Disappointing others?
Egg white omelet with sautéed onions and peppers, topped with salsa
Half a wrap with avocado and mushrooms
Salad with lettuce, feta, oranges, and candied walnuts, raspberry vinaigrette
Half a protein bar
Café fare while writing
Earl Grey tea with soy milk
I probably won’t have Internet access later tonight, so no dinner pics for you.
Exercise: 60-minutes strength training, 30-minutes stairmill