I’ve never quite believed that one chance is all I get.
I don’t know who Anne Tyler is, but I agree with her.
It’s never too late to give it your all, try something new, or start something over.
When I was 24 I applied to law school. I didn’t end up going; I was offered a job I just couldn’t resist right before deposit time. At this point in my life, with a much better understanding of myself, I am glad I decided against law school. Mainly because my reasons behind it weren’t the best. The friends I have that are lawyers that love their jobs are the folks that love the law and the study of it. The friends I have who became lawyers for status reasons, or because they didn’t know what they wanted to do with their lives hate their jobs. I was in the latter camp. I was having a wee bit of a quarter life crisis and figured law school was a good way to run away from reality for a while.
But I digress, while I sat there looking at my acceptance letters trying to decide where to spend the next three years of my life I couldn’t help but thinking, “When I graduate I will be 28. I’ll have to start my career over and I’ll be so old!”
I’m turning 28 in 21-days. If I could slap my 24-year old self around a little I might.
Dear 24-year old Kim, I AM NOT OLD! You’re just young.
The older I get, the more likely I am to take chances. Perhaps that’s backward, but when I was younger everything in my life was utterly calculated. I had a plan, and I did not diverge from said plan. I was waiting for “the chance.”
Now I see the world as a veritable buffet of chances. Big chances, little chances, chances you don’t even know you’re taking.
I’m not sure I even want “the chance” I had hoped for most of my young life, that doesn’t really fit the woman I’ve become. I certainly do want a whole slew of other chances though and I’ll be pretty disappointed if I only get one shot at them. Life takes practice, I’m bound to make a few mistakes.
Oatmeal with banana and almond butter
Brown rice, lentil stew and avocado
I had rehearsal after work last night. this of course means I had to pack my lunch.
Gotta love Thanksgiving leftovers:
Whole wheat pita, turkey, tomato