The Secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.
The quote above, by none other than Buddha, was exactly what I needed to see yesterday after a day of eating for all the wrong reasons. I started out with a big breakfast, mainly because I was craving hot sauce. This is nothing new, I’m pretty sure most of my life is spent trying to find a vehicle for delivering hot sauce to my taste buds. Breakfast was fine, I felt okay about it.
When it came time for lunch, however, my food choices started to come from an emotional place…mainly avoidance. It was a stressful day at work. I’ve made no bones about being unhappy in my office life. I’m working on being happy in life in general, but the 8.5-hours I spend in the office can feel soul crushing. When I went to Whole Foods for lunch I bypassed my usual salad bar or soup, and went to the hot bar. I actually consciously thought the bigger the lunch the more time away from the office. It makes me sad to write that, it’s just an icky feeling to let something in my life make me so miserable that I would actively avoid it by eating.
When it came time for dinner, I ate out of obligation. I met up with my “writing partner”, a fellow writer who I met while taking classes to help me with my book. She’s working on a memoir, and now, I’m working on a memoir. It was great to put some work out there and get critiques and feel like I was working toward a goal that at its root was all about doing something for myself. We met at a restaurant, it was an accident, she had told me the wrong place, when she really meant a coffee shop. I felt obliged to order a “meal”, I’ve been a waitress and I know how disappointing it is when people come in and only order an appetizer. The mac & cheese was amazing, maybe the best I’ve ever had, but it was an indulgence that came from the wrong place. Tuesday when I went to Hooters, was an indulgence I was planning on and savored, yesterday I just felt weighed down my my choices.
Perhaps that mental weight was more about the reasons behind my choices all day, than the actual food itself.
Anyhoo, when I came home I saw that quote by Buddha and thought, forget it, let it go. My only goal today is to “live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.”
Black bean burger, egg, avocado and hot sauce
Indian buffet at Whole Foods
My eyes were way bigger than my stomach, I didn’t make a dent in this.
Mac & Cheese