New Year’s Resolutions are a big deal in this little world of mine. Every year starts off with this glowing opportunity to be a shiny perfect new year and I can be a shiny perfect new Kim.
Alack, I am not perfect, but I am Kim, and one out of two ain’t bad. This year, I’m taking a more realistic approach to my New Year’s Resolutions. While this may seem like an I-don’t-have-the-attention-span-to-read-this-whole-blog kind of blog post, the majority of what I’m aiming for this year is getting back in touch with myself, and learning how to handle my life the way it is. Oh, and maybe a wee little bit of fun.
Food & Body
Get back to my food ideals. When I started this blog I had already gone through a transformation in relationship to my body. I’d lost oodles and oodles of weight without dieting before the blog started, and continued to for the first year of this blog. What I had done was started to eat instinctively: mostly vegetables, home cooked meals, natural or organic ingredients. Eating when I was hungry, not eating when I wasn’t, unless of course there was something special that deserved eating. No points, carbs, or calories counted. I lost that somewhere along the way. When I lost my jobs last year many of the behaviors I’d put behind me started piling right back on. Probably based on insecurity. I spent so much of my life feeling insecure about my body that when I started feeling insecure about my career and ability to function as an adult all those old insecure behaviors came back. I gained weight. I started (secretely) counting my calories. I started the olde binge on the weekends approach to eating (ever notice I don’t blog on the weekend?)
In 2010, I am nixing the calorie counting. It’s not healthy for me because it gives me something to obsess over. This process, I have learned, needs to be organic for me. It’s back to eating because I want to, healthy foods and sometimes not so healthy foods. Exercising because I like it and it makes me proud, not because I write about fitness and want to see the “calories burned” number on my heart rate monitor increase.
The Kim Challenge: Take more pictures of me. On February 20th The Kim Challenge will be 2 years old. Sometimes I get so focused on the food that I forget that there’s a face attached to it. So, in an effort to make my blog more personal (although, honestly it’s pretty personal) I’m going to try and remember to throw pictures of myself interacting with my food up more often.
Also, I really want to get the blog redesigned, but it’s out of my budget right now.
Forkful of News: My other blog Forkful of News is being reborn in the New Year. While I still own and maintain the blog, I have handed over the reigns to another writer who is organizing the editorial aspects and has hired new collaborators. From here on in I’m posting on Fridays for Forkful, but content will be refreshed by other writers the other six days a week. It feels good to let someone else take over sometimes.
Professional Writing: I write for two other blogs that I do not own and operate, and most importantly I get paid for. This is an amazing opportunity for me. I feel very fortunate but it has really changed the dynamic of my life. My days start much, much earlier, and there is always a deadline looming driving me crazy.
I need to learn to manage them better. For the fitness based site I write for, I’m scheduled to write once a week. Strangely enough, this is the deadline I always forget about because it’s flexible and I keep putting it off. I need to make a set day of the week that I post for them.
The other writing I do for a New York City Radio Station’s website is daily and can be anywhere between 4-10 blogs a day, which can be a lot to handle. To top it off I can’t even access the site from work (damn firewall) so I have to make sure everything is ready to go before I leave for work in the morning. This needs more planning in the coming year. I need to dedicate one day a week to banking non time-sensitive posts, so that I’m not brushing my teeth with one hand and typing with the other while rushing out the door.
All Writing: I need to proofread better. My professional work is easy because I have editors who catch those silly typos and context errors I make in the heat of the moment, but it really is embarrassing considering I write professionally that I am addicted to comma-splices, run-on sentences, and have no concept of spelling. This goes for my jobby-job too. Sigh.
Truth be told I’m not in lurv with my jobby-job, but I’m lucky I have it and it’s good to me and in return I should be good to it. Which means PROOFREADING. It also means spending less of my workday on gchat and facebook.
I acknowledge that I am human and a product of my generation. Therefore, cutting it out completely is unlikely, but I need to cut back to a couple of personal email checkeroos a day and one facebook. And Twitter, damn you Twitter.
In general I’m pretty good with finances. I’ve always been a big saver and that savings helped carry me through most of last year. BUT, there’s always a but, for the first time in my life I’m carrying a credit card balance and owing money bothers me in ways that seem completely over-the-top-and-borderline-crazy. So, this year I will eliminate my credit card debt if it kills me, which I’m sincerely hoping it doesn’t. Life is too short to be done in by an AmEx.
This can sort of be filed under “blogging” but it’s also a personal goal. I love cookbooks, love them like they were adorable little babies made out of paper and the potential for snacking. (Note: I do not promote snacking on babies, paper or otherwise). I have a lot of them, cookbooks, not babies.
It’s time I use them, and it’s time that I get more adventurous in my cooking.
I love cooking, but after a long day of work most of the time I just go for whatever is easy-breezy. I am committing myself to using a recipe from a cookbook (or heck, even the magical world of the interweb) once a week. Of course, then I’ll blog about it because I can’t eat something and not write about it, which would just seem so wrong.
This is something I’m getting better at, but I’m still not perfect. It is within my nature to always say “yes.” Yes, I will help you. Yes, I’m fine with doing whatever you want to do. Yes, I would love to give up my only day off in a month to help you change your oil in New Hampshire.
I’ve reached a point in my life where battles are no longer being fought for me. Where I don’t really care if people think I’m a bitch for saying “no.” I’m at a point where I think I finally value myself enough to prioritize my needs, maybe not all the time, but enough of the time to keep me sane.
It’s been a really hard year, but in the end I’ve ended up okay. That means a lot to me. A lot of people aren’t okay, things are really hard for people all over now. This year I want to focus on volunteer work and increasing the amount of money I give to charity.
I would like to go on one. Possibly by myself.
I’m so done with 2009. Bring on 2010, I’m ready to focus on being the best, most non-perfect, version of me I can be. Comma-splices and all.
What are your 2010 resolutions?