There are moments in every overachiever’s life that they, without fault, can not achieve in the manner they wish.  I’m dealing with this particular reality this very moment when it comes to the use of my muscles.  I made the resolution this month that I would accept myself this month, try my best, but not spend hours berating my imperfections.  And that is precisely what I’m trying to do.

For the time being exercise can happen once maybe twice a week.  It is not a permanent reality for me, but it is my reality for the moment and it is the best I can do-I accept that.  Today, I found a loophole in my lethargy.  I work in a building, a building that has stairs.  Stairs that are accessible.  I’m not sure if this is true in the rest of the country, but in New York City, since the Twin Towers, building security has been stepped up to an almost ridiculous level.  This of course means that nary a stairwell is left accessible.  My last job was one of those very buildings that alarmed the stairwells and created a sad dependency on elevators.  My new job not so much.  Eight whole floors (nine if you include the basement, which I do because that’s where the cafeteria is) of stair accessible workiness. I work on the fifth.

My monthly resolution was to try my best, not give up all together, so I’ve made a new resolution-to take the stairs wherever I go!  Based on the burning in my thighs I’m quite mobile.  Damn you…err, thank you, coffee maker on the second floor.  Building transport does not a stairmaster make, but it’s something that does make me feel a little better.

Here’s the food:

Breakfast 10.14.09


Smoothie made with soy milk, banana and frozen cherries

Lunch 10.14.09


Wrap w/turkey, lettuce & mustard
Salad w/lettuce, tomato, cucumber, carrot, and light Caesar dressing

Snack 10.14.09


Cascadian Farms Peanut Butter Pretzel Granola Bar

Dinner 10.14.09


Udon Noodle Soup w/Shrimp and Bok Choy