I’m so truly touched by all of your well wishes for me and my family. I was literally moved to tears when I got home tonight and saw all your comments. Thank you all so much!
I’m trying to get back to some semblance of normal life. My father sent me back to New York City yesterday, he was starting to worry about my mental health, and my mother, as weak as she is kept saying I was going to get fired if I didn’t leave. The truth is, I won’t get fired. My job has been extremely understanding. In fact, upon returning today, I was told that if for whatever reason I need to leave to see my mom, that’s A-okay. I can’t tell you all how lucky I feel by all the support we’ve received.
Working today wasn’t easy though, I probably called the hospital, my father and my two best friends way more than I’d like to admit. I’m very lucky that the three are them are checking in on my mother regularly and reporting back to me. I’ll be back home to see her Friday afternoon but that feels like forever. For now, I’m trying to figure out how to be real again. I feel guilty living my normal life. I know logically that doesn’t make sense, but emotions aren’t rational. I’m also trying to remember how to eat again. I can’t tell you what I’ve eaten over the last two weeks. Mostly, I didn’t think about food, but ate when I was supposed to (thanks to much help from my friends), but usually whatever was easiest. Oh, and a lot of coffee.
I know, however, that by not taking care of myself, I’m not doing myself or my mother any favors. I’m probably not in the best place to hit the gym right now, as I’m not ready to be out of arms length of my cellphone, but today after work I spent a couple of hours walking around the city with a very good friend, and eventually getting dinner. A long walk was really cathartic, I needed it.
Whole grain bagel w/lite cream cheese
Grande soy latte
Lentil soup & whole grain roll
Pinot Noir (trust me, I needed this)
Mediterranean Platter: Hummus, tabouli salad, falafel, pita