I’m back from the script reading.  As I suspected there was pizza and wine and cupcakes that looked scrumptious, but I held my ground.  I stuck with some herbal tea and a banana I took from home.  I like to think there will be other opportunities to eat cupcakes and drink wine.   Oh Gosh, what if that were my last chance at cupcakes and wine?  The thought is truly too sad to think about.

The reading went well though, I really think that the director/writer is unbelievably talented (actually he’s won an Emmy, so apparently I’m not the only one who thinks so), and it promises to be a really great film.  I even snagged myself a supporting role as the crazy ex-girlfriend of the male lead.  Yay, I’m so excited to be a part of this project, but honestly I would have been happy just helping around the set, that’s how confident I am that this will be a great film.

My audition on the other hand wasn’t so hot.  I just didn’t feel prepared; mainly because they didn’t tell us what was expected of us (which was impressions) until we got into the room.  Which sort of wreaks of poor planning.  I’ve held auditions before, and I’ve planned them poorly at times, so perhaps this was Karma. I’m not particularly concerned.

Rene: Glad to see you’re safe and back and wouldn’t be creeped out if I emailed to make sure you’re okay.  Congrats on the audition!  I once heard an actress, I think perhaps Bette Midler, say “I love auditions, they’re the only opportunity I get to act on a regular basis.”  I thought that was marvelous and whenever I lament the drudgery that is pimping myself out to the entertainment industry I think of that.  Good luck at Sundance, I will keep my fingers crossed for you, and would love a recap when you get back! (PS-Beano is on my next shopping list)

Hannah: I think that, possibly unfortunately, possibly not, that self acceptance is a lifelong process, but that doesn’t mean that we don’t reach stepping stones along the way to rest on for a while.  Sometimes I think that if it came easily it wouldn’t be nearly as much.  It may sound silly, but I appreciate myself and my body so much more now that I’ve known what it’s like to really not, and I never want to be back there-it makes it that much more special.  I know you mentioned you’re still in school. I think so much of my self-discovery happened once I was finally out of school and realized what I could accomplish-you’ll get there 😉

I’m off to bed now, as it’s almost midnight in my neck of the woods and I’m getting up early to go to a 6:30 am spin class.   I just feel like I’m much more productive when I don’t roll out of bed in the middle of the day.

Dinner

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Brown Rice with Roasted Vegetables
Lentil Soup

Snack

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Decaf Green Tea & Banana